The book that everybody has been waiting for is finally arriving on your shelf soon .
more to come!
The book that everybody has been waiting for is finally arriving on your shelf soon .
more to come!
Poetry is important because it allows individuals to express complex emotions creatively, connect with others through shared experiences, enhance language awareness by playing with words and imagery, ignite imagination, and deepen understanding of culture and history through its unique use of language and form.
I have been writing it for YEARS! Even won the Editor’s Award for writing poetry.
Here are 3 of my top poems that I would like to share- they describe feelings that I felt a while back and as someone told me, they are powerful. But then again, Words are powerful.
YOU MUST LOVE ME
I’m sorry that I’m an inconvenience to your so perfect unhappy life.
I should have thought twice before I let you in to play.
You might as well have raped me like a beast,
For I let you feast on me for free.
My innocence is gone.
I have nothing to believe.
Now instead you want me dead!
But honey, I’m already dead!
When you drained all of my happiness from me!
My stamina for life has stuttered, unwillingly.
Maybe this means that you must love me.
Should I celebrate in the joy,
That I was once your favorite toy?
Should I just forget about making amends?
And just return to the corner of your mind until you wish to play with me again?
You’re so pathetic, you ungrateful piece of crap!
Tell me, don’t you remember all the times when I had your back?
You think it’ll be so easy to pack up all the memories,
But you have no respect or concern for me and it shows.
You love the fact that you’ve made me miserable.
Because only you can become a hero and rescue me from destructing.
Go ahead, you might as well try to resuscitate my limp body,
And breathe new life into me.
Maybe this means that you must love me.
Should I rejoice, in your choice?
To break me down even more to the ground that I am?
Well my friend,
Here I go again;
Maybe my mind’s playing tricks.
I hope that is it.
Or maybe this means that you must love me.
DO WHAT I GOTTA DO
Its a shame that you don’t even have an open mind.
You see the love I found, you see that I’m happy,
But you still want to take me down.
I know what I want, I know what I need.
I’ll do what I gotta do. I’ll be me and you be you.
You see that he loves me and can’t understand why.
I’m not a waif or a princess and I ain’t mighty high.
I am just the girl who lives next door. And that makes you even more boiling with envy.
You think that you can get the last laugh,
And torture me with your mighty words.
You think you are about to put me in my place,
But you hide behind others and can’t even show your face.
You hatin’ hard tryin’ to get attention,
Honey, I can see right through you,
There’s no way to copy this girl, I’m an original.
Your jealousies
Give it up, save your breath,
You thought I would wave my flag,
You underestimated me.
I know what I want and I know what I need.
I’ll do what I gotta do.
I’ll be me and you be you.
I may be bent, but I ain’t broken.
Trust me, my final words have yet to be spoken.
You’re about to see me in your dreams tonight.
It will give you quite the fright.
It may make you lose your mind.
Trust me, karma ain’t gonna be kind.
You messed with the wrong girl,
Now I’m about to give your world quite a twirl.
I’m strong and I’m a fighter,
And all you are a one good stinkin’ liar.
I know what I want and I know what I need.
I’ll do what I gotta do.
I’ll be me and you be you.
Skin
I do my best with soap and water.
I even scrub under my nails.
But it does no good when you are in my system.
You are a germ that just won’t go away.
You are in every inch of my skin.
Okay, you win!
So I have no choice,
There’s no reason to fight.
So I guess it’s destiny saying,
You should be part of my life.
But first,
I think you should remove the knife,
You carelessly placed in my side.
But all you care about is your pride.
You know that I can’t fight the feelings I have for you,
But yet, you won’t do anything about it.
Except all you do is keep me hanging on,
Wondering when you will take that first step.
Honey, I understand that you have a rep,
But please, quit acting so boyish.
Be a man, become my man,
Tonight.
You are in every inch of my skin,
For that you may think that you already win.
But I have ideas that creep inside my head.
Actually, this germ I have will one day spread,
Into your body, mind and soul.
It will haunt you.
It will taunt you.
And after it does everything to you the same as it has done to me,
You’ll see,
No soap or water will be ever able to get rid of me.

The Book That Gary Bettman and company doesn’t want me to write.
This book will be written in 2 parts.
The first part will be my creativity in motion. Athletes from some NHL teams will know or maybe will know that it is about them.
Part 2 is the story of the NHL from a Female Perspective
IF you follow me on Tiktok, Twitter X, or Youtube, hints will be posted for part 1.

It’s no secret that A) I am a hockey fan and B) have had my share of controversy with my podcast – which I will mention later, but in its creepy, disgusting way, is all tied together.
For those who aren’t hockey fans, there was a story that broke last week in regards to a sexual assault on a female back in 2018 at the World Junior Championship with Team Canada.
Here’s the background on this case:
In March of 2023, TSN’s Rick Westhead reported that The Heritage Committee had unanimously voted for a motion directing Hockey Canada to hand over law firm Henein Hutchison’s final report detailing its investigation into the alleged sexual assault.
Police investigators in London, Ont., said in December of 2022 that they had “reasonable grounds” to believe that five members of the 2018 Canada World Juniors hockey team sexually assaulted a woman in a hotel room after a Hockey Canada fundraising gala, according to a court filing to the Ontario Court of Justice.
The sexual assault allegations initially were investigated by London Police in 2018, however, the case was closed in February 2019 without any charges. The investigation was reopened in 2022.
In April of 2022, a woman filed a lawsuit against Hockey Canada, the Canadian Hockey League, and eight unnamed CHL players, stating she was sexually assaulted in a London, Ont. hotel room in June of 2018 following a Hockey Canada event.
The woman elected not to name any of the players involved, and stated in her original claim that it was eight “players for, and members of the CHL and Hockey Canada, including but not limited to members of the Canada U20 Men’s Junior Hockey Team.”
According to the lawsuit, the woman met the players at a bar, who were in London, Ont. for the Hockey Canada Foundation Gala & Golf event on June 18, 2018. She met one of the players, who is referred to as John Doe 1, who bought her alcoholic beverages. The woman said she was separated from her friend group as she became more intoxicated and eventually left the bar and went to a hotel with John Doe 1.
At the hotel, the two ” engaged in sexual acts” in John Doe 1’s hotel room. The woman said that after this, “John Doe 1 invited the remainder of the John Doe defendants into the room without the knowledge or consent of the Plaintiff.”
The woman said in the claim that over the next several hours, John Does 1-8 engaged in several sexual acts “which collectively constituted sexual abuse and assault of the Plaintiff.” During these assaults, “the Plaintiff experienced an ongoing apprehension of imminent physical harm of a sexual nature. The actions of the John Doe Defendants caused terror and fear in the Plaintiff’s mind.”
In the claim, the woman states that she could not give consent to any of the actions because of how intoxicated she was. In addition, the group of eight would not let her leave the room, despite multiple attempts by the victim.
The woman claimed that Hockey Canada knew about the allegations and did nothing about them.
Hockey Canada stated on Dec. 20 that their investigation had concluded and an adjunction panel would determine if any sanctions need to be imposed. They would keep the results confidential as the London Police continues with its investigation.
In addition, Hockey Canada said last year that no player from the 2018 World Juniors team is eligible to play for Canada’s national team in any IIHF event for the foreseeable future. ”Senior officials at Hockey Canada… claimed they didn’t know who was involved. It was a statement as ridiculous as it was disheartening and sickening.”
After the initial closing of the investigation, Hockey Canada began to receive backlash from Canada’s political figures and sponsors, in addition to fans of the sport. Especially since they quietly paid off the woman involved.
The NHL said it would conduct its own independent investigation into what happened because some active players were on that team and attended the gala. Commissioner Gary Bettman pledged to release the findings once completed, but as we saw with the hush hush and lack of transparency with what went down with the Blackhawks, we know fully well that this too will be “swept under the rug”
It’s disappointing the NHL doesn’t have the guts to own it, instead putting out a potential new franchise in Utah, to deflect from this breaking story, it’s pathetic really. And what I think far worse is the timing of how the NHL released it “mental health awareness” campaign to allow guys to have a leave of absence from their team and that too, was used to protect the five guys that are being charged with rape. The five guys are: NHL players Michael McLeod and Cal Foote of the New Jersey Devils, Carter Hart of the Philadelphia Flyers and Dillon Dubé of the Calgary Flames. Former NHL player Alex Formenton, who now plays with Swiss club HC Ambrì-Piotta, is the fifth player. Which brings me to the male fans disgusting reaction to this on social media.
This is why women don’t want to speak up. Being raped is the one of the WORST things a woman can feel and go through and these men on social media are more concerned about their hockey teams, defending the guys, and to me, the teams who knew about this and covered it up helped move the players around is despicable.
As a woman I can vouch that we are taught how to defend ourselves against being raped, when how about we actually teach men NOT TO RAPE!?
Of course women who are hockey fans have to endure being called, “puckbunnies” because yeah, heaven forbid a girl likes the sport for the sport. What these aholes on social media don’t realize is that throwing around a term like “puck bunny” is the same as calling them a slut…it’s not any classier and it certainly doesn’t make you look like any more of a real fan- it actually makes you look like loser!
Most guys feel threaten, by a female who know her shit and is not afraid to tell it. As if women don’t face enough struggle earning respect period in the world today, in the sport of hockey it is 100% worse! Men should be less worried about women making them look bad all awhile they are looking like a catty high schooler for being concerned with their ‘extracurricular activities’. ( I say that with a lot of sarcasm!)
Sexism is no stranger in hockey as it has been in football and even baseball.
The hockey PR departments ACROSS the league HATE women. Yes, I said it and I stick with it. 62% of men are employed by NHL teams while a whopping 37% are women. Not surprised. And if you look at their roles, that’s even worse.
Women work the sidelines/benches. Do you see women on TNT at the desk? Do you see women on ESPN at the desk? Do you see women as the an analyst?
Do you see any woman in a high ranking position?
How many females do you think do an NHL podcast and are promoted by the NHL?
If you scope out X , you will find thousands of podcasts done by males, and their guests are usually who…. Other males.
On my podcast, I had male guests. For example, one of them a crazy fan, and another was another podcast trying to get big names on his. He told me that he was going to have me on his podcast as that was the deal- I’d be on his he be on mine…. Do you think I was ever on his?
Because men don’t want to hear women talk hockey .
If you look at some of the women that are hired …. The blonde chicks mind you. That’s the reason they are hired for their looks not for their intelligence. Women are hired so it doesn’t look like they are being discriminated against when, in fact, women are constantly discriminated against in the world of the national hockey league.. they even have this fake special day called women empowerment day…. Like they give two shits about women.
Going back to my podcast, And the guy that I knew in the PR department for the New York Rangers…. He knew Exactly that I was asking to have Jacob Trouba on my podcast, constantly ignored me, never responded, and then when the controversy hit X, instead of reaching out to me, like a man would do to see if he could fix anything or apologize, he unfollowed me on Instagram, unfollowed me on Facebook to pretend, as if he never knew who I was…. Oh I have screenshots..
Trouba on the other hand, knew I was asking for him to be on my podcast, and instead of being a man and reaching out to me, decided to go on a podcast with men at the helm. Trouba showed you that he is sexist against women just as the PR department is…. Just as the New York Rangers organization is….. oh, and by the way, there is a sexual assault lawsuit against the owner, James Dolan.
I’ve always thought of James Dolan, as a very savvy businessman….. but you can kind of tie everything that’s happened with women in the Knicks and the Rangers organizations together…. don’t forget he’s also had Isaiah Thomas who was accused of sexual harassment, and then put him in charge of the WNBA’s team that used to play at MSG. He showed a lot of disregard for women.
It would be a smart move for James Dolan if he actually showed some concern for women, and what women have to go through to be in sports industry. It would also make him look better with the news coming out of his sexual assault lawsuit.
But you won’t see any other guy on the New York Rangers stand up against Trouba or stand up against what the New York Rangers PR department has done or for that matter stand up for women. No, they’ll just wear those stupid purple jerseys in March for women’s empowerment, and then auction them off for “charity”
That’s the sad part.
And fans are no better.